During the last month of retrogrades (Venus and Mercury), I did a very Scorpionic thing and had a major purge. The cleanout began in earnest after I unexpectedly found a picture of myself from 10 years ago as I was looking for some other document in my desk. In the photo, I was standing in downtown Brattleboro, Vermont, a few days after Christmas, and my face was as overcast as the sky.
Looking at that photograph, I had one of those moments when you suddenly see yourself as an observer would—and I was shocked. The pain in my face —- my unhappiness —- was evident in my forced smile and my downturned eyes. My light was dimming, and I was not raging against the dying of that light. No. I was numbed out, trapped (or so I thought) in situations and circumstances I saw no way of changing.
Coming upon that old photograph was an awakening. I look at myself now and see an entirely different—and much more happy—person. The last ten years I have done so much inner work of excavating, examining, processing, purging, and healing —- and now it is reflected on the outside. Well, almost.
At the Scorpio new moon a month ago, I realized that my Fairylight Studio (cluttered and disorganized) and my website (with its dark colors and photos) were holding onto heavy energy — energy that was not aligned with my current self. So I took a break for a few weeks from other tasks (including my YouTube videos!) and focused my energy on revamping, renewing, and refurbishing my studio and website. All those “re” activities were a great to focus on during the retrogrades!
As we move into the energy of December, with Mercury retrograde wrapping up on the 6th, we have a new moon in ever hopeful Sagittarius on the 7th.
This new moon is square Mars transiting conjunct Neptune in Pisces. Mercury, stationing direct, is at the tail end of Scorpio, wrapping up any unfinished business since it went retrograde.
Whatever came out of the shadows to reveal itself to you in November —- like my ten year old photograph found unexpectedly in my desk drawer —- has significance at this new moon. What dream seems impossible to you now? If you had asked me ten years ago if I could ever be so happy, so on purpose, so healed — I would have said, yeah, right. It seemed impossible to me back then that anything would change for the better.
Here's the thing at this new moon in Sagittarius: whatever dream seems impossible to you now is the one to take action pursuing. Click To Tweet
Squares in astrology make heat, make friction. Mars conjunct Neptune in Pisces squaring the new moon in Sagittarius is to me about the damaging effects of dreams deferred. When you don’t take action to make your dreams happen, that subconscious undertow drags you down. You can drown in regret, recrimination; you can relapse into addictions and damaging behaviors.